Thursday | January 19, 2006

Arrested

Two kids in my class got arrested today for shoplifting. It was weird. I mean, they're both jerks (to me at least) so I didn't expect to care. I don't think I do either. For them, I mean. 
But seeing cops, it was freaky. I practically broke down in tears, only  i controlled myself. I always do, don't I?
You know what I think it is? Cops have always been there in the big traumatic scenes of my life-my mom getting arrested, my mom trying to break down my grandparents'  door, my mom throwing things at my dad...huh. what a connection. seems like my mom's always there too.
Anyways...it was ironic. Because just before I saw the cops drag Jerk One into the school me and my friend O were talking about our lives and stuff. You know. not depressing. Just the truth. the past. It's amazing what people keep secret. They're always the last people you'd expect...
O suggested I go see a shrink like she does.
Maybe I will. MAybe.
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Sunday | January 08, 2006

PAARRRTTTYYY!

Whoohoo, dropped two pounds! Although I'll probably gain it back at my friend's birthday party. But oh well. I went from 135 two weeks ago to 128!!
YAY!\
Oh, wait. I just realized this is titled 'PARTY.'
Lol, right.
Well, it's my friend's bday party today except one of the busses doesn't run on sundays so I have to walk to the next intersection to catch the other bus to the station and go all the way downtown.
Meh.
We're going to watch a movie.
I don't know who "we" consists of.
I don't know what movie.
Oh well. Anything to take my mind off being depressed.
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Saturday | January 07, 2006

YAY!!

Auntie's not pissed off at me anymore, I don't think. Just disappointed by the sound of her voice. I dunno what's worse.
I'm supposed to babysit for my cousins though. I might actually get paid.
My friend's party is tomorrow. Did I write about that? I got her a pink puma bag because I thought it would match her new shoes.
I didn
Oh. Wait. I DID write about that.
I have the worst memory ever.
Gawd, my eyes are killing me. I've been playing PS2 forever and I've been practicing PSATs at www.testpreview.com
I know, sad, eh? I'm not even American. I'm friggen Canadian and we don't even need to do the stupid SATs!!! I'm so pathetic.
Lol, w/e
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Friday | January 06, 2006

More words

Also in reply to a comment posted by C.B:

Prerequisite: a necessity
Nonsensical: ridiculous
Guerilla: lawbreaker
Poetry: ballad (Weird definition)

I'm figuring guerilla poetry is a free-for-all style poetry, just the way I like it. My world is way too uptight.
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First comment!!

HEEHEE!
I'm so ecstatic, I got my first comment to a post!!
Sure I'll give 'Guerilla Poeting'  a try. But what is it?
Lol, I'm so happy!
SQUEEEEE!!!
You know...now that I think about it, I think it's because I'm free, you know? In the real world I have to live up to this image I've created of myself to keep 'evil' people away. But here, I'm anonymous, allowing me to say what I want to say and unleash all the crappy emotions that are whirling around in my head.
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Words

Plegmatic: Having or suggesting a calm, sluggish temprament; unemotional (Phelgmatically Charged- get it?? Oxymoron. Duh. LOL!)

Esoteric: Not publicly disposed, confidential (duh, oxymoron again)

Quotes of the day:

"Dont let your past memories and mistakes take over on your judgement for the future."
"An eye for an eye will leave the world blind."
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websites 2

  1. www.urbandictionary.com (slang dictionary for those of you who don't know the meaning of things such as ESP or Baked)
  2. www.dictionary.com (online dictionary...guess where I got phelgmatic and esoteric?)
  3. www.firehotquotes.com (BEST quotes ever!)
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websites-06/01/06

  1. www.blog.com      
  2. www.hotmail.com
  3. www.fictionpress.com (books/poems written by people you can read online-non published)
  4. www.fanfiction.net (books about stories/plotlines already been done-ex, Harry Potter)
  5. www.neopets.com (ok, ya. Bit too old for this but hey, good time killer!)
  6. www.bored.com (do I NEED to explain this??)
  7. www.darwinawards.com (HAHAHAHA!!! FUNNIEST website ever. The awards are given to people who died doing stupid things. Rules are you have to have no children or something. the award is given to thank the person for having done the stupid deed to prevent the rest of sane society from doing so and not having reproduced and introducing another idiot to the world)
  8. www.stupidvideos.com (think America's Funniest Home Videos)
  9. umm....?
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So Clever

WHOOHOO! I' m soooo smart.
I bought my preppyish friend way too obsessed with Puma to be natural a pink puma bag that was on sale at sporting life!!!! And clever me, since it was empty I rolled up this cardigan thingy she left chez moi at a sleepover to make it look full AND return the thing back to her!!! Isn't that smart??
I bought the bag and this new hoodie at Sporting life for technically 93 cents because my dad gave me this 50 dollar gift certificate to the place. I'm SO happy!
Hoodies are my latest obsession.
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Gains and Losses: 06/01/06

This is what people with no lives such as I do. They count their money:losses, gainst, etc etc.

Losses:
22.96$-Bluenotes-12/15/2005
22.88$-Gap-12/15/05
12.06$-Shoppers Drug Mart-01/03/06
11.50$-Urban Planet-01/03/06
50.93$-Sporting Life-01/06/06
26.06$-Staples Business Depot-01/06/06
20.00$-Auntie (payback loan)
6.80$-Bus fare (apx.)

Gains:
50$-Sporting Life Gift Card-01/06/06
6$-Bro-Hair Dye (Shoppers)-01/03/06
23$-Bro-Christmas-Date unknown
42$-New Years Money
3.94$-Staples Change

Net Gain: -48.96$

HOLY SHIT!!! I am ACTUALLY in the NEGATIVE figures! This is ME we're talking about, people, BIGGEST SCROOGE IN THE CITY! Ok...besides my mom. But you get the point? Biggest scrooge for a 14-year-old girl then. I am ACTUALLY in the negative figures! !! I bet I lost more too because I'm SURE I spent more on bus fare. The stupid people hiked up the student fee last year...
Dammit! I don't even have a JOB! I rely on my dad's cash flow! Dammit!!!!! Must start saving...

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